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since i was little i've hear that all things happen for a reason, call it destiny, call it God. and since i was little i thought it was a lie, yeah i still believe it is but i was just wondering, maybe i'm wrong.

sorry to bore you, you don't have to read this, this is more like a self reminder more than anything :3

i'll go on
i've heard that God have a plan for everyone (i was raised catholic then i became atheist when i was 12, now i'm agnostic), but i think people just look for someone to blame, for both good and bad things, bad things mostly. they involve everything into this "God's plan" i must say i can't stand some things, one of them are lies, others are blindness and stupidity. i cannot say i know it all 'cause i know i don't and i can't but the other day i heard something that i couldn't stand, so bad that i had to leave the room.

this person was talking about a child that was born retarded, and that the family see it as a miracle, having a child an all wich is good but they called it "a blessing" as for me, being like that is everything but a blessing "innocent, like their angel" that's when i stood and left. i said nothing 'cause it wasn't my place after all but i got mad, i mean... what about the child? i'm sure is not a blessing for her, it's difficult enough to try to live into this world being "normal" and i know there's no such thing/definition for "normal" but you get my point, life is hard enough to even born with obstacles and then try to make it through. seeing your parents get sad, seeing your parents try harder and harder, seeing them doing the impossible to get your medicines is not what a child want, want it or not children  notice, they know, we know. we just want our parents to be happy... to not to suffer and most of all we don't want to be the reason of their suffering. it helps no one to have a child like that, at least is what i think, i mean, wouldn't you trade anything to change that? wouldn't you give up all that you learned from it to return her to normal, to make her stronger, to make her healthy? i know i would if i were their parent

a father being killed by a stupid bus driver in front of their children is part of a plan? a bomb explosion in the middle of a school is part of God's plan? being rapped, being kidnapped, being killed, being scared... living scared, i don't think that's part of any plan, we should stop blaming God, destiny luck or anything you might believe in and start blaming us, start to make things right, start to learn instead of just cross our arms leave it all to this higher/wiser being, we can change our lifes can't we? we can make our own plans, at least i wish to believe in it.


i have to say it was never my intention to be rude or to be offensive, my apologies if i was.